Past Actions , Outcomes and Free Will

I have previously drowned myself in the concept that I'm not living up to my potential; that there was something I was supposed to be doing that I was not doing. Most of my endeavors have been to fill in space with things that I thought would be fulfilling and follow the genetic propulsion to live and experience life.  When I have been driven by my own concepts of fate versus free will, it's hard to determine what is required and what is desired.
It has come to light ( for me anyway ) that free will is a gift given to us. Those who have a concept of a divine source may feel that this divinity is the cause and reason for everything. That includes all the bad things that happen as well as the good. My sense of Divinity is the order of the universe where balance and harmony exist. As a human being with free will, I have a choice in either direction. If I follow my ego-based perception, my actions will create outcomes relevant to that perspective. If I strive to understand the more spiritual rationale for my actions, I can move with a harmonious dance in my life. If I choose to ignore the conscious, higher directive, there will always be the possibility of chaos and disillusionment. Is it possible, that my concept of what is the right thing to do, feel , or say could possibly upset the balance of the universe I live in and contribute to the confusion and pain? After reflecting on my past actions and outcomes, I would have to say emphatically yes.
We can choose to follow our own self-will or we can choose to tap into a higher consciousness that has a much better perspective on our actions and their outcomes globally rather than just in our fishbowl of existence. Defining our spiritual principles and guiding force stabilizes behavior and actions in the future. If there is a code of living that is more in tune with harmonizing with humanity, we can choose to be a participant or ignore the effect our selfish and unconscious behavior generates. Our past life is an easy roadmap for these choices. If we take a personal inventory and reflect on past behavior and results, this concept is an easy one to understand. These higher principles remain available even if we choose to ignore them. Though life is not a video game that you can just restart, changing the way we play the game is always an option. We always have that choice.