Evidence of Life

Evidence of Life
I have always wanted to be unique and remembered as no other. I wanted to corner the market on at least one singular expression, one individual behavior, product, or artistic creation never seen or done before. I have wanted to be remembered for a legacy which lives on after I am gone.
This is the way I have lived my life and, naturally, have come to the end of each chapter of experience disappointed by not reaching this high watermark I created as a measuring stick for my success.
While young, that disappointment was turned into motivation to recreate a new goal or adventure and blaze a new trail towards great possibilities. In reflection, I realize that I have been able to achieve a few unique and special moments in my personal history but, though very interesting, they did not create the dynamic effect, the profound spiritual experience I have sought. Simply put, I have not found the clarity of what is my gift of "being" to this world. I need evidence that my one drop of being and life in this ocean of eternal energy from The Source is as significant as the poetic vision of a second in endless time, a single note sounding through this unfinished symphony, and the one beat of the universal heart that allows the one before and after to follow and be followed keeping the eternal rhythm bouncing off the silent drum in boundless space.
The only thing I realize from this search and need is that what I want cannot be found from the outside. This cannot be understood and imagined with my limited experience of the external world. The boundless space inside my heart and soul is where I must discover and know who I am and where I fit. The special gifts that were given to me and have been taken for granted and sometimes even ignored, identify this trademark of my being. It is no longer necessary for me to decide how beautiful and how significant they are in the scheme of things. When I am "in love "in spirit and joyful in action, then I know I am in union with eternal source and fulfilling my part in this creation. That's the only evidence I need today.