I strive to be truly present; in the moment, aware of all its parts and connected to the pure energy that creates and drives the moment. For me, it's the ultimate goal of meditation, of living. I have had brief episodes of grateful captivity and had experiences I can only liken to moments of harmonious motion; being inside the motion as the "doer", the witness and the historian simultaneously in a microsecond of total awareness. That's as intimate a collision with my divine spirit as I can describe.
The closest I can get to any repetition of such an experience is through music. I have a gift of harmonization. When I hear a song or sing with others I hear the harmony and automatically vocalize it. It's a most natural response and is not confined by any attempt to figure it out. For me, being truly present has no thought involved, only awareness and openness.
On occasion as a human jukebox, I am momentarily outside and inside the song....present and aware, without thinking. It's the easiest oasis to locate and replicate my bliss. But when it occurs in other areas of my life , those rarer moments of unexpected joy and connectedness, that I cannot force or demand, I am affirmed that this feeling and moment of presence can be found and experienced again. Those fulfilling memories propel me towards the greater hope of a full life imbedded in these types of experiences, not just music. May my life become a song of being with the notes as moments, breaths as sound and the rhythm as my heartbeat: the present of the present in presence.
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