What I Do not Know

I've been writing for a while. Mostly I've written about things I've come to understand and perspectives that have shown me a better approach towards living. But some of the other Treasures that this inner travel and somewhat intensive preponderance has also allowed me to receive is the understanding and recognition of what I don't know how to handle or do.

In the past I probably would have been ashamed, shy or depressed about these hidden disappointments, foolish actions and failed outcomes and spent too much focus and time trying to prevent their discovery. This internal temporary suicide and soul betrayal created an image of an undesirable character with no hope of contentedness or true happiness. I recall experiencing great pain upon the repeated discovery of my short lived hope.

 Today, though, I consider an appropriate apportionment of importance for my successes or shortcomings.  My successes have far outweighed my failures. I accept that perception and believe it to be true. However, I am perfectly willing and enthusiastic to learn more and act differently than before. I may never know how to fix my weaker areas perfectly but I can use my "roadmap" of my past to at least not repeat the same pattern.

Rather than see myself as a rock with finite edges and borders, I choose to see myself as an ever-growing tree, with roots deeper and branches wider always aiming towards the ever present, ever available light.