COBWEB REMOVAL. HOUSECLEANING of the Travelling Mind

I have always been a traveler in my mind. I think I've mentioned before that I always wanted to be anywhere but where I was so the only place that permitted such adventure or hopeful possibility for temporary excitement, was in my mind. That's probably why I was an avid reader because for a brief period of time, I could be anywhere experiencing other varieties of places, people and events that distracted me from my own temporary lack of imagination.  Similarly, I  have had the ability to recall things, possibly not as they truly happened, but as I imagined or choose to believe they happened.

So in addition to that wing of fancy in my mental mansion, there were also rooms that housed decaying debris of disappointments, dusty trophies of forgotten fun, and shards of broken glass where light and color  and warmth of memories once shone.  It has been my own house of thought and experiences, but sometimes I felt a prisoner.

But now, during this stage of my life duly dubbed as a spring cleaning of my mind and soul, the automatic associations from the past do not occur nearly as frequently as they did before. I'm on this great adventure, literally.  I can go at my own pace, where I want, and visit places and old friends anew. This however is  not your standard retirement sojourn across the vast expanse for lack of anything else to do, but an open invitation for my life to expand. It feels big only because my door is open. I am drinking in the world around me and feeling my place in it.  Cobwebs which bound the past to me are being swept away. The dust is being removed and the memories are being put into place where they can be recalled without distraction and dislike.  Nostalgia or morbid reflection is being replaced with recollection and  recognition. I'm beginning to realize that I am from whence I came but that doesn't limit where I'm going. So today I'm looking at this beautiful sky while I'm in New Mexico and I just feel its beauty and its vastness and eternity beyond my touch and human comprehension. I have no thought of past or future.  I'm just here today without dust or clutter because , at least at this moment, with Grace, the cobwebs are not visible nor blocking my view.