I'm beginning to see life in it's multifaceted becoming like a jewel that is enhanced or obscured by the momentary changes in the surrounding and permeating environment. It's now not so much that I am creating this life as I am viewing it from different angles. It's as if the entire story has been written but I'm reading the pages through a variety of perspectives. These windows for observing my life and soul and spirit and heart seen to open up depending on which position I am in at the time. Am I looking at it from above (feeling high and happy) or underneath (from a sad and lost condition)? Am I seeing it at the Sunrise or at the sunset of an experience. All of these conditions contribute to the way I view and experience these moments in my life. The honeymoon beginning or the painful Break-Up of a romance, the ecstatic thrills or the disappointment in a life scenario that does or doesn't work out the way I think it should , or the unexpected that causes me unwanted and "ill-deserved" discomfort or pain, these are the things I see differently depending on my perspective. I can watch as my vision alters from morbid reflection to reasonable understanding and Sage wisdom. All of a sudden I am in touch and respond as the guru, the teacher, the wise wizened crone instead of the arrogant, disillusioned and immature child who has not gotten her way. It is no longer an adolescent reaction but a carefully perceived grace.... A knowing that relieves the ache of the unknown cause. Sometimes time, sometimes distance... softens or recolors tragedies into logical conclusions. Disappointment can be replaced with gratitude for the lesson which helps revise future vision in choices.
A spiritual intuition and surrender allows this change of mind and heart. It is the cleanser, the ethereal Windex that keeps the light shining through potential dark places. Past experiences can be the curtains that close me off from the value they hold. My spiritual condition keeps those curtains open. Rather than feeling as if I am on a runaway merry-go-round that I can't get off, I feel as if I am holding a handcrafted kaleidoscope with a never ending production of color for each experience.
Today I no longer feel fearful of punishment or Karma but remain open to reasonable opportunities for growth, using faith as the tiller toward likely possibilities for peaceful Joy and serenity
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